I am trying to not speak in metaphors so much … I want to be more direct. I wll start here. I know that it might take longer for the results I hope for, but I am not feeling brave enough to reach out directly and say these things. So maybe I can’t expect much then, but here goes anyway.
What I have been feeling over the last few days: Lonely, Sad, Aggravated, and Aggressive.
Right now I feel: Unsure, Sad, Isolated, Tempted, and a bit Detached.
What I want: To be held. Jesus. A cut. A drink. To not feel like I’d be bothering people if I said this directly to them. (I know it’s not true, but I don’t want to FEEL it. How do I not feel it?)
What I need from you: For those that read this to acknowledge I’ve been heard – whether it’s through a call, a text, or a comment on here. I really need reassurance right now. I need to know you are out there. I need to know that my pleas are not empty. And I also need you all to know, that I love you.